Chapel Lawn is undeniably having a “moment” (at least, if the entire year 2024 can be called a “moment”), but she says that even a year ago, she would not have been able to handle life as it is now.

In a new interview with Rolling Stone magazine, the 26-year-old artist opens up about her mental health, the impact bipolar II disorder has had on her life (and career), and her journey to finally getting the right treatment for her.

Although officially diagnosed several years ago, Roan, whose real name is Kaylee Rose Amstutz, said her struggle with mental health goes back much further.

“I was miserable throughout my childhood,” she said, adding that “all my parents could do was their best.”

Lorne's official diagnosis of bipolar II disorder in the summer of 2020 was perhaps not the most tumultuous time in her life. Not only was she, like the rest of the world at the time, dealing with pandemic-related stress, but she had just been dropped from her first label, Atlantic Records, ending a four-year relationship.

She was only 22 at the time and dealt with the upheaval the same way many young people do: she returned home to reinvent herself. The process included working at a drive-thru in Missouri and going to therapy with her family.

“It saved us. I thought, 'I can't hate my parents for the rest of my life for not knowing how to handle a really, really sick child.' I was just miserable."

”I was just miserable.

Shortly after returning to Los Angeles to work on her music career again, Roan found great popularity on TikTok.

“I wasn't sleeping. I was on the wrong medication,” she said of that period. 'I had energy and paranoia, and I realized this app was fueled by mental illness. That's right.”

By 2022, Roan decided to enter outpatient treatment, battling suicidal thoughts.

“I knew I couldn't live like this. I couldn't live with being so depressed and lost that I wanted to kill myself. I just got myself back,” she said, explaining that she was grateful to have gotten the treatment and help she needed before her current great fame. Even a year ago today, I wouldn't have been able to cope with all this. I would not have been able to do it.”